Its weird how you expect more out of a Camera, than you put in

This is what my sister tells me everytime I try to explain to her that its not me, only my picture that’s come out ugly. Yeah, I love her too.

So whether or not she’s right, fact is, more than 90% of my pictures come out butt ugly, which is all the ones where I know someone is taking a picture. This is why I’m either behind the camera, or holding my hand to my face in most of my pictures. To further this claim, let me give you two examples – my pictures on facebook are all untagged as soon as they are tagged by my friends (I have less than a fifth of my pictures left tagged) and I took over 1100 pictures in Afghanistan last year, I think I’m in five of them.

See if it was just admitting I’m not a looker, I would be more than happy to do it. I know I’m not. I just think I look very unlike myself in my pictures. The humaira I see in the mirror is not the humaira I see in my pictures. I remember one of my friends once told me that the image you see in the mirror can never look exactly like you, because of the way light bends and reflection and refraction and all that. The same with photographs. So which one of me is me then? Am I even touching the real thing with my hands? Do I still have only one nose? Oh God.

After we came back from our trip to Oman a couple of months ago, I saw that my sister had taken pictures of me where I thought I looked like me. I finally changed my profile picture on facebook and I got two comments. One loser called me a poser, which I most definitely am not. The second friend said ‘Wow this is such a pretty picture. You look so unlike yourself’.

Fml.